Ninjacrab456

Dear everyone, 
 I have not been active on Deviantart in over a year. Why today out of all days have I decided to become active again, I have no idea. Do I have any plans on becoming active again? No, I really do not. I came to Deviantart during a rough time in my life, and I would like to leave it there as best as I could. Have I stopped writing? Not really. Full length novels, yes. Poems and prose, no. If you're still interested in my works, my tumblr: www.tumblr.com/blog/nomorethem…, should appease that part of your interest. 
 So, what have I been doing all this time? Well, I am about ready to graduate. I have successfully obtained a large portion of my bachelor's degree, alongside my diploma. I also have been focusing on my performance arts a lot, and I have auditions to Julliard next year. I am currently one of the highest ranked flutists in my state. I have been receiving mounds of help for my depression, and am happy to say that I am on my way to a successful recovery. While my mental illnesses have acted up in many different ways these past few years, I have been working to get them into a state I can deal with. And yes, I did say mental illnesses. I have acquired a horrible case of PTSD.
 There's a few other updates, like I'm dealing with chronic physical illness and can be officially considered a disabled persons now, or how I'm pretty sure I've met my soulmate, but I feel like I can leave this where it is. I hope all of you have an amazing day/night and continue striving against all artistic odds. 
Ava

     I was in the ER yesterday. They claimed I was going to be there until the day after Christmas. Not that I am not glad that I am home now, but it hurts like a motherfucker.
     I have a bleeding ovarian cist. It`s like a bur, those spikey things that attach to your clothes when you go through the woods, on my ovary that is causing internal bleeding. It`s about the size of a small bouncy ball. 
     It hurts so much that I want to have my entire reproductive system removed, because who cares about having children?
     The doctors took a CAT scan, an ultrasound (where I would not stop crying for the life of me), and several blood tests. All together, it took six hours for the doctors to tell me that my appendix was not swollen or that my ovaries was twisted.  America....
     My Christmas Eve is now going to be spent taking pills like crazy for the immense pain I am in, trying to avoid relatives, and not being allowed to be touched by anyone because it hurts thAT FUCKING MUCH!!!! 
     Other than that, my life has been a ride. My boyfriend and I are doing fine, I am keeping his jacket hostage over the holidays, and he was going to visit me at the hospital the other day but didn`t because he got out of work after I was released. I recently bought a signed copy of the book The One, by Kiera Cass. I have this guy who likes me at school telling everyone that I`m cheating on my boyfriend with him and I am about to kick his motherfucking ass.
     Also, I now have two older siblings (fake older siblings) that are the best older siblings I could ask for. I am thinking about going back to band camp, but I might now be able to because I am going to be trying out for a swim team. I am apparently good at the butterfly stroke...who knew?
     I won`t keep on blabbering for long...just wanted to tell you that I might post a short story soon. Like, next few days soon. Also, I am dying my hair strawberry blonde and going to get colored contacts and am basically going to six more doctors...yeah...my life is a medical mess...

     SO! Two things:
 I dumped two guys in the last...*counts on fingers* month? I got back together with one of them (don`t tell my mom) and I found out I am an asexual. YAY!
 My depression has gotten better, somewhat, and I changed schools and became really popular. Yeah. I don`t like it. It`s like my every move is being watched. It`s...quite disturbing.
 Anyways, lots of pictures soon I PROMISE!!!!! I`ve been working so hard and I don`t want to disappoint anyone. I will make sure you see pictures. OKAY?

Okay. So, I had surgery Monday on my ears. Yup, mah ears. So, since the medicine is so sucktastic, I have been drifting from conciousness to unconciousness without even knowing. Yay me.
     So, I have a new boyfriend. I know what you are going to say. Isn't it too soon? Well, I have a story for you. My ex requested a song at our school dance, dedicated to me. That song was "We are Never Ever Getting Back Together" by Taylor Swift. He dedicated it to me. I went to go talk to him about it, and he started swearing and everything at me. I ended up nailing him in the face, after he flipped me off and I flipped him back. I am never going to speak to him again. So, yeah. That happened.
     So, what the details? No. No thank you. I am done with this. Nope!
     I am so tired. I have to go to DC on Monday. Waking up at 1:00 am. Ugh! Then, I have volleyball camp when I get back. Suck! Ugh.
    When are stories coming out? Sorry guys. I don't have time, or any concious to do them. I might try to do Her Turn, but I just can't. Sorry.
    WHAAAAAA!!!!!!!!???????? Yeah, sorry. I just can't fit it into my schedule right now. I have a full time job as a patient right now. Sorry.
    What about the fans!? Nope. Dooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnn'ttttttt caaaaaaaaaqarrreeeeeeeeeee

      1 point for face, 2 points for shoulders and above, and three for full body. Five for color and background, and anything else is discussable.
       So, anyone up for it?